AHH!!! PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO BE MY FRIENDS!!!


it's creepy

I THIRST FOR CHAOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way



When the sun shines, we’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella



Well, you can tell by the way I use my walk,
I'm a woman's man: no time to talk.
Music loud and women warm, I've been kicked around
since I was born.
And now it's all right. It's OK.
And you may look the other way.
We can try to understand
the New York Times' effect on man.

Whether you're a brother or whether you're a mother,
you're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Feel the city breakin' and everybody shakin',
and we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin' alive.




Cheated by
The opposite of love
Held on high
From up up up above
Kept my high
From the second one
Kept my eye
On the first one

Now take these rings
And stow them safe away
I'll wear them on
Another rainy day
Take these rings
And stow them safe away
I'll wear them on
Another rainy day

Take these rings
And stow them safe away
I'll wear them on
Another rainy day
Take these rings
And stow them safe away
I'll wear them on
Another rainy day

Well I'm
Taka-taka-taka-taka-takin' it off
And she's
Taka-taka-taka-taka-takin' it off
And he's
Taka-taka-taka-taka-takin' it off
And we're
Taka-taka-taka-taka-takin' it off

Sometimes
I think that I'm bigger
Than the sound
I think that I'm bigger
Than the sound
I think that I'm bigger
than the sound
I think that I'm bigger
Than the sound

She'll take on high
She'll take on high-igh

Well sometimes
I think that I'm bigger
Than the sound
I think that I'm bigger
Than the sound
I think that I'm bigger
Than the sound
Well I think that I'm bigger
Than the sound

Cheated by
The opposite of love
Held on high
From up up up above
Kept my high
From the second one
Kept my eye
On the first one

Now take these rings
And stow them safe away
I'll wear them on
Another rainy day
Take these rings
And stow them safe away
I'll wear them on
Another rainy day

Now take these rings
And stow them safe away
I'll wear them on
Another rainy day
Take these rings
And stow them safe away
I'll wear them on
Another rainy day




Mimi:
It's true you sold your guitar and bought a car?
Roger:
It's true - I'm leaving now for Santa Fe It's true you're with this yuppie scum?
Benny:
You said you'd never speak to him again
Mimi:
Not now
Maureen:
Who said you that you have any say in who she says things to at all?
Roger:
Yeah!
Joanne:
Who said that you should stick your knoes in other people's...
Maureen:
Who said I was talking to you?
Joanne:
we used to have this fight each night
Mark:
Calm down
Joanne:
She'd never admit I existed
Mark:
Everyone please
Mimi:
He was the same way - he was always "run away - hit the road don't commit" you're full of shit
Joanne:
She's in denial
Mimi:
He's in denial
Joanne:
Didn'y give an inch when i gave a mile
Mark:
Come on
Mimi:
I gave a mile
Roger:
Gave a mile to who?
Mark & Benny:
Come on guys chill!
Mimi & Joanne:
I'd be happy to die for a taste of what Angel had someone to live for-unafraid to say i love you
Roger:
All your words are nice Mimi but loves not a three way street you'll never share real love until you love your self-I should
no
Collins:
You all said you'd be cool today so please for my sake...
I cant believe he's gone
I cant believe your going(to Roger)
I can't believe this family must die
Angel helped us believe in love I can't believe you disagree
All:
I cant believe this is good bye
( Maureen and Joanne reconcile and go home. Collins returns to the funeral home. Mimi and Benny leave together. Roger and
Mark are left alone.)
Mark:
I hear there are great resturants out west
Roger:
Some of the best, how could she?
Mark:
How could you let her go?
Roger:
You just don't know...how could me lose Angel?
Mark:
Maybe you'll see why when you stop escaping your pain at least now if you try Angel's death wont be in vain
Roger:
His death is in vain
Mark:
Are you insane? There's so much to care about there's me there's Mimi-
Roger:
Mimi's got her baggage too
Mark:
So do you
Roger:
Who are you to tell me what I know. What to do
Mark:
A firend
Roger:
But who Mark are you? "Mark has got his work" they say "Mark lives for his work" and "Mark's in love with his work" Mark
hides in his work
Mark:
>From what?
Roger:
>From facing your failure, facing your loneliness facing tha fact you live a lie
yes, you live a lie tell you why
you're always preaching not to be numb when that's how you thrive
you pretened to create and observe
when you really detache from feeling alive
Mark:
Perhaps because I'm the one of us to survive
Roger:
Poor baby
Mark:
Mimi still loves Roger
Is Roger really jealous or afraid that MImi's weak
Roger:
Mimi did look pale
Mark:
Mimi's gotten thin
Mimi's running out of time
Roger's running out the door--
Roger: No more! Oh no! I've gotta go
Mark:
Hey for someone who's always been let down who's heading out of town?
Roger:
For someone who long's for a community of his own, who's with his camera, alone?
i'll call i hate the fall
(Mimi enters)
you heard?
Mimi:
Every word
you don't want baggage without lifetime guarantees
You don't want to watch me die?
I just came to say
goodbye love goodbye love
came to say goodbye love, goodbye
just came to say
Roger: Glory
Mimi:
goodbye love
Roger:
One blaze of
Mimi:
goodbye love
Roger:
glory
Mimi:
goodbye love goodbye
Roger: have to find
(Roger leaves Benny enters)
Mimi:
please don't touch me understand I'm scared i need to go away
Mark:
I know a place, a clinic
Benny:
A rehab?
Mimi:
Maybe could you?
Benny:
I'll pay
Mimi:
goodbye love
goodbye love
came to say goodbye love goodbye
just came to say goodbye love
goodbye love goodbye love goodbye love
hello diesease
(Mimi runs away, Collins is booted from the funeral hame when he can't pay the bill. Benny offers to pay; then he and
Collins go drinking. Mark stays behind to prepare for his meeting with "Buzzline".)




Ah, ah,
We come from the land of the ice and snow,
From the midnight sun where the hot springs blow.
The hammer of the gods will drive our ships to new lands,
To fight the horde, singing and crying: Valhalla, I am coming!

On we sweep with threshing oar, Our only goal will be the western shore.

Ah, ah,
We come from the land of the ice and snow,
From the midnight sun where the hot springs blow.
How soft your fields so green, can whisper tales of gore,
Of how we calmed the tides of war. We are your overlords.

On we sweep with threshing oar, Our only goal will be the western shore.

So now you'd better stop and rebuild all your ruins,
For peace and trust can win the day despite of all your losing.




[Maria:]
High on a hill was a lonely goatherd
Lay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hoo
Loud was the voice of the lonely goatherd
Lay ee odl lay ee odl-oo

Folks in a town that was quite remote heard
Lay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hoo
Lusty and clear from the goatherd's throat heard
Lay ee odl lay ee odl-oo

[the Children:]
O ho lay dee odl lee o, o ho lay dee odl ay
O ho lay dee odl lee o, lay dee odl lee o lay

[Maria:]
A prince on the bridge of a castle moat heard
Lay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hoo
[Kurt:]
Men on a road with a load to tote heard
Lay ee odl lay ee odl-oo

[the Children:]
Men in the midst of a table d'hote heard
Lay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hoo
[Maria:]
Men drinking beer with the foam afloat heard
Lay ee odl lay ee odl-oo

One little girl in a pale pink coat heard
Lay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hoo
[Brigitta:]
She yodeled back to the lonely goatherd
Lay ee odl lay ee odl-oo

[Maria:]
Soon her Mama with a gleaming gloat heard
Lay ee odl lay ee odl lay hee hoo
What a duet for a girl and goatherd
Maria and the Children:
Lay ee odl lay ee odl-oo

[Maria and the Children:]
Ummm (ummm) . . .
Odl lay ee (odl lay ee)
Odl lay hee hee (odl lay hee hee)
Odl lay ee . . .
. . . yodeling . . .

[Child:]
One little girl in a pale pink coat heard
[Maria:]
Lay ee odl lay ee odl lay hoo hoo
[Child:]
She yodeled back to the lonely goatherd
[Maria:]
Lay ee odl lay ee odl-oo

[Maria:]
Soon her Mama with a gleaming gloat heard
Lay ee odl lay ee odl lay hmm hmm
What a duet for a girl and goatherd
Lay ee odl lay ee odl-oo

[Maria and the Children:]
Happy are they lay dee olay dee lee o . . .
. . . yodeling . . .
Soon the duet will become a trio
[Maria:]
Lay ee odl lay ee odl-oo

[Maria and the Children:]
Odl lay ee, old lay ee
Odl lay hee hee, odl lay ee
Odl lay odl lay, odl lay odl lee, odl lay odl lee
Odl lay odl lay odl lay

[the Children:]
HOO!


I'm really bored.

I am so sorry I have been neglecting you LJ. I just don't have anything to write about and when I'm bored I just look up random Youtube videos. I feel bad now.



Oh well! :D

The library is aways weird on Mondays. Today I have seen a slut who used to go to y school, a wrigger who used to go to my elemetnary school, and this guy who showed my friend his dick when she was 9 and at the same time a girls from church's cousin. And they are all here together. It's creepy

I'm hungrey and I want Lent to be over. And I want a burger with a choclate shake. And fries. And some chicken. The End

Artist: Tavares Lyrics
Song: Heaven Must Be Missing an Angel Lyrics


Heaven must be missin' an angel
Missin' one angel, child, 'cause you're here with me right now
Your love is heavenly, baby
Heavenly to me, baby

Your kiss with tenderness
I want all I can get of your sexiness
Showers, your love comes in showers
And every hour of the hour
You let me feel your loving power

There's a rainbow over my shoulder (Ooh, ooh)
When you came, my cup runneth over
You gave me your heavenly love
And if one night you hear crying from above


HELP ME!!!
It's 'cause heaven must be missin' an angel
Missin' one angel, child, 'cause you're here with me right now
Your love is heavenly, baby
Heavenly to me, baby

Ooh, heaven, heaven
Ooh, heaven, heaven
Ooh, heaven, heaven
Heaven, heaven

I really don't like my parents. I seriously don't. Last night I got confused over where to meet my friends. So I was alone at a skating. By not calling my dad to say my friends I was appearently decieving him so now I"m in trouble. Also, I snuck out of the house at 9:30 (which isn't really even snecking out of the house because, hello it was 9:30) to buy my dad a Valintine thing for my dad so he wouldn't throw a hissy-fit. So instead of being grateful, I am in trouble. Last night my asked if why I didn't want to be a good kid.

This really made me mad because I am a really good kid. I don't do drugs, I'm in honor class and I spead most of my weekends reading or watching cartoons.

So now I have decided to become a bad kid

I didn't have any school today unlike losers like Ashley :p

I really am happy that I haven't been at school for the past four days. I mean, I don't hate school. I just don't like it. I go to my church at least 3 times a week, so I have enough teenage things in my life. I don't need to go to school for 5 days a week. More like 2 days a week. Or 3.

Ugly black girl and her posse is at the library again. Whoopie.

It is cold.

I like to ramble. It is fun.

Today is tuesday. House is on, but I've been neclecting him, so I'll probably watch another Hallmark movie like last night. I love Hallmark movies. They are sorta better then Lifetime movies because Hallmark is mad for everyone.

Well, not everyone. I bet psycho killers don't like the movie's sappynest.

My toes are cold. The Amazon quatert is weird. I can't spell.

The library is filled with myspace people. Youtube.com is the best. Ashley is funny because she flirts with the other youtube, but she won't admit it.

Sometimes, people really piss me off. An example is this ugly guy who is looking at me typing right now. And people in general. They suck.

But the song is good. I like the Faders.

There are 2 kinds of people in the world. The do-ers and the sitters. It is ok to be a sitter every once in a while, but you don't want to be a sitter forever. Sitters piss me off, even though I am pretty do-erish.

The End

I was ungrounded so I could do something beside watching Sailor
Moon on Youtube. I have never watched stars, but can't since I've never watched super s. So, now I'm watching a cute filer with little Diana the Kitty. She's so cute.

friends are blah

I am tired and I guess want to go

I am not usually the person to use OMG!!!! O.k, who am I kidding, I so am.
I use it a lot. But this time it is a really good reason.


RENT IS COMING TO MY CRAPPY TOWN!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have no life so for the last week I have rediscovered the tv show degrassi by watching the reruns that come on at the wee hours of the morning. This is week has been boring because I am grounded from calling anyone on the phone, only people can call me. And me being so popular, no one has called me in the last 4 days exepct Alex Ruiz. And I seriously think she was high.

My lips are not chapped. That is a ggod thing

Have you ever noticed how pretty the moonlight is? Where I live (and I'm not telling because who knows what prevs are out there) it has been cloudless for a while. And me being up so late (or early depending the way you look at it) I have been able to look at the full moon. It's purrttee.

The End

No appulse, just money.

I am sorry livejournal, I have been negelcting you. This is why I don't keep journals in real life becuase I always forget about them. I'm sick. Yuck. These are thoughts I have had since my last journal.

1. Jacob Labrana is really hot. (out loud I laugh because I remember when his little brother tried to do a front flip into the pool but instead landed head first on the deck)
2. I love my Uncle Jeff
3. Why is my uncle's girlfriends daughter showing off her boob job?
4. Pastor Jim can't sing
5. I hate my dad
6. I love Christmas
7. I hate Christmas

Those are my only 7 thoughts I have thought since I last thought. I think. Yeah

Bye-Bye

P.S. Isn't Shirley Manson awesome??

Roger is too hot for mimi so I want mimi to die so I can love him forever. The End